Winter nights are even more colder

Every time I come across this picture I giggle and think of the abuse we suffered from our friends for taking Bruno and Rihanna on a mini holiday. What makes me even burst out laughing is how you entertained the abuse with angry responses. Sometimes I had to calm you down and ask you to ignore them. You really got worked up. It was just a pleasure to watch you being daddy to our two beautiful dogs. We argued about what's good for them and what's not. Constantly showing each 'new research' from Google. I'd concede most of the time because you were more passionate about this than I was.
Last year we were broken when Rihanna died from poisoning. When she got ill, you took her to the vet and called me to come home. She got worse overnight, but she died in your arms while I was driving. You were so brave throughout that moment. You held me and we cried together. We were so sad. But we kept on trying to cheer each other up. Our friends saw our pain and they showed us compassion. We lived and continued to love. Not so long ago you and I spoke about a year since Rihanna's passing. It was still a sensitive topic. We moved on and spoke about other things. There was still sadness, but I won't forget how you'd bully me into a good mood. I was annoyed when you'd tickle me unexpectedly and became playful. I don't know how many of my books you damaged doing this. Cause I'd be reading when you storm in and demand attention. I'd give anything to have those moments again.
I'm still not back at work. Stuck in our bed missing your warmth. The winter night are so much more cold without you. Missing that beautiful body of yours. I miss watching you dress up for work. Sometimes I'd make you change into a better outfit. I am home thinking about all of that. I hope you can help have strength to go back to a new routine without you here in the physical world. Going back to work is going to be another emotional episode because that's where I found out 6you're gone. I so wanted to die with you that day. If you come take me now, I'd come. I miss you and haven't figured out what I am going to do without you. I love you.